WHAT'S 9 + 10

Another year has passed and now I'm 21!!! I can now drink and gamble in America!!! ... Though I've been able to in the UK already for the last 3 years. Not that I do either.

I think 21 will be good. I'm starting university in September and I'm honestly really excited even though it's going to be a lot of work. I need to start getting fit because my endurance is kinda doodoobutt...

My life lately has been back on XIV. Fanfest was so hype it got me to resub for 7.5... OMG. EVERCOLD. I'm so hopeful for the expac but it's going to be the first time I can't speedrun+nolife an expac because I have uni right when it drops >_>) ... Good luck future me. My short thoughts on Evercold: I think MSQ is sounding really promising and I hope they don't let us down. I'll be less mad if they do though because the QOL changes are so good + DT has some of my favourite fights and music in the entire game and I expect they'll carry that over to EC.

Other than XIV ... I'm all over Aquamarine as usual. I've been writing my story (Fall in love) very very slowly but I'm closer to the end than the beginning. I'm kind of losing my steam but that's okay. I don't have deadlines.... though I think it would help my workflow honestly lol.

(Pictured: a work in progress for the cover picture of 'Fall in love'! Pretty happy with it so far.)

I'm excited to release part 1 (Winter)...  I guess this is going to be a long-term project but that's fine. This is my first time writing something like this but I mostly just want to convey my ideas and make something. Why not? If I'm having fun then that's all I need. If someone else can enjoy it, then I'll be extra happy.

That's all I have in me really. Thanks for reading!
(I forgot my April post... it's ok)

  SORRY I MISSED MARCH

Fuuuck. It's okay. It's still March in America so I'll write this blog post quickly.

I have been so busy this month... I've been all caught up in university junk but now that's slowing down since I've been accepted into and chosen my university! Yay! Now I won't doxx myself but it's in a really nice part of the city... I'm certainly not going anywhere fancy but as long as I can get qualifications and experience then I'm all happy.

I am doing biomedical science but this year will be my foundation year since I lack science qualifications. Lol. I'm kinda surprised how I'm being let into this course considering how disconnected I am from science (last time in education was for digital illustration).. but that's only because I was comparing myself to the kids studying science currently. I think I'll be older than some of my uni peers because I took a while to figure out what I wanted to do but thats fine. No one will notice probably.

Other than uni junk... I've been deep in the writing trenches. I don't know if I mentioned it on here but on my Aquamarine blog, I posted about 'Fall in love'. TLDR: 'Fall in love' is a sequel story to Aquamarine's vague present canon and it's about Raphael, ex-Aquamarine diver, and Felissia, hitwoman and housekeeper.

(Pictured: Raphael and Palafin, Felissia and skitty and my pokemon trainer OC Burger and her twin ralts-es! I drew these on a drawpile with some friends. Raphael and Felissia's pokemon were chosen as vibe matches but I've also picked out actual teams for them too. Maybe I'll put that on my Aquamarine blog since I have teams for all of my OCs.)

I've made really good progress on 'Fall in love'. I overestimated how long this would be so I'm splitting the story into 4 main parts and releasing them individually. I'm almost done writing the winter chapter! Then I'll have it proofread and make any edits then make some illustrations I wanted to insert too. I guess it's a really stripped down visual novel. I really cannot be asked to code on top of write so... It's plain text with images :-P

Omg I did tussle with coding though. Since blogger lets you edit HTML on a post I wanted to implement a button that shows pictures when clicked. Really simple. But for some reason I found it impossible to find the code and make it work. I GOT IT EVENTUALLY BUT UM. WOW. NO WONDER I STOPPED DOING COMPSCI.

Um.. I kinda haven't been drawing much lately though. Just been doing more writing and been busy. I did draw this yesterday on the same drawpile I mentioned earlier.

So fckn tuff. Other OCs belong to Summer, Nico and Niea! SHOUT OUT❤

Anyway that's all I got for now. If I ever think of something else to make a blog post of then I will. And I'm sure I will with how many things are happening in April! Some of my most hyped anime, Tomodachi life in 2 weeks, FFXIV 7.5... Fun fun fun.

Thanks for reading and take care! >_o)~*

 Career change?!

Can it really be called a career change if I never had a career? Anyway: the point is that I'm starting to walk in a new direction in life and I hope it goes well. I've applied to some pharmacy apprenticeships but I honestly kinda doubt they're gonna get back to me soooo.... I want to go to university.

It conceptually sounds like a bad idea. I struggled a lot in high school and college but to be honest I think I was a lot more careless when I was younger... I was fairly lazy and apathetic about school... amongst other things lol. Lockdown just made this a lot worse. I think I'm just afraid I'm going to start my adulthood and be aimless forever... so I've been stewing over what to do with my life for a while now. I'm definitely still going to struggle with school, but I really want to try. I want to have a stable job one day in something I'm interested in...

So here's the weird part: when I finished my GCSEs (high school for Americans), I decided I wanted to run away from more academic subjects and became an art student. I enjoyed it for what it's worth, I met a lot of lovely friends and I think most notably I made Aquamarine for my final project. To be honest I just think my course/college was lacking and I didn't feel very fulfilled... I felt like I didn't actually learn much.

So you probably think I'm going to do some kind of creative degree and while I definitely could, I just hate every aspect of the concept. For one, I think I'm a lot happier when art is a hobby rather than my job and everything I do. Two... the industry is kind of in shambles. I guess that goes for every industry tho? lol

I want to go into biomedical science... I've always enjoyed science and I grew up surrounded by a lot of medical influence in my life. I'll have to see if I even get accepted into any universities, but I think I can do it...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I kind of regret going into art and I'm a little bit worried about the change but it didn't come out of no where...

Hi Roid. Wanted a pic to break up the text a lil. I guess you could say that Roid's character as well as my Aquamarines (the twins and Atlas particularly) are reflective in my interest in science too... Albeit I'm a bit of a fraud right now and haven't studied science in years lol. I just quite enjoy those kinds of themes. 

I've done a lot of research into degrees I can do and honestly this is the best pick for me. I briefly considered architecture too but that's a whole other monster in itself I think... I also honestly envy the uni experiences I'm missing out on too. I think it would do me well to go back into education and get out of the house more.

Another reason is to make my Mum happy... When I told her I wanted to go to university, she was really really happy. I'm happy too. I feel like I'm finally getting off my butt... I just needed some time to process what I really want.

If you read this post... please wish me luck... I want to do something more with my life... Thanx for reading!

I'll probs do another blog post before the end of the month...? Maybe!

 IT'S THE END OF JANUARY...????!

Maybe it's because I'm not currently employed or go to school (it definitely is) but personally time has been passing by so fast... I can't believe it... And I haven't done my monthly post so it's time to get Rankaroid blog up and running again.

To be honest with you I've been applying to a bunch of apprenticeships... I'll keep the blog updated or not depending on my failure or success. LOL. I don't really see myself going to university so I think getting experience working is what I'm aiming for. I'm going through the application process of one but it's a fairly competitive apprenticeship so I've been applying to a bunch more in the meantime... I love drawing my ocs and fanart but I don't really think I'd want a creative career :P 

Omg. It's kinda depressing to talk about all that on the blog. Let's fast forward.

What have I been doing with all of my free time? I picked up House at the start of the year but I kind of fell off half way through season 2 because the show is pretty formulaic and also I can't watch medical shows while I eat which is most of my watching time... I don't hate the show though, I'll probably pick it back up another time.

I also started Higurashi at the start of the year (or specifically right before new years) and I've been making slow but steady progress! I'm currently on chapter 2 "Watanagashi" and I'm actually half way through it, just based on a quick google of how many subchapters there are in chapter 2. I'm really enjoying myself so far but wow. Um. Ryukishi was really gooned out in a bad way while wriitng this chapter. LOL. My spoiler-free review: I really love the Sonozakis so far. I'm really excited to see where their characters go. Rich coming from the guy who has his own pair of green-twin-girls ocs but they're actually really different so it's fun to compare...

(Pictured: this really kind Mion sprite... I got kinda emotional seeing it... It reminds me of Rei Mekaru's sad smile sprite. Mion is shaping up to be my favourite Higu so far.)

Okay. Next on the list..? I've been drawing and writing! YEAH! It's all a little disjointed though. I just finished my commission queue so I can work on 2 art trades now. I really want to draw some things for Valentine's though so I'm aiming to finish these art trades quick. 

(Pictured: an art trade I finished earlier this month of Marcille!)

I'll reserve the main Aquamarine updates for the other blog, but I haven't made much VN progress. I paused VN writing because I ended up making and developing 2 new OCs, but they're unrelated to the VN so it doesn't affect the development of that. Yay!

The (bad??) news on that end is that I want to write a story (not VN, just written with some pictures) around these 2 new OCs. Their story is set many years before Aquamarine's vague present time, so it's a completely separate thing. Either way, I'm having fun with my OCs so I win!

I have a lot of fun writing... I only really share it privately with friends but I love seeing their reactions, especially on the more outlandish things I write. Maybe I'll be brave enough to share it all publicly, but for now I'm enjoying my peace and privacy. If blog reader is interested in reading, you can ask >_o)

I played some FFXIV this month but.. ah.. I've had my fill for now... Maybe I'll resub another time. XIV really truly kills my productivity so I'm gonna stick to being unsubbed lol.

I've been super Aquamarine-y lately but it's also made me realize I don't really have a good way to show people my characters and world. I want to work on new references and writing that will make them accessible :D! My other blog is a perpetual WIP.. lol.

That's all I got in me. Thanks for reading if you did! Hope your 2026 has started on a good note.

RANKAROID 2025 FAVOURITES 

I'm hoping to make one of these every year but here's the second edition of Rankaroid Favourites. (A little late but I made it!!!!!!)

If you have known me in the last year then you probably know about the first entry. Sorry. Talking about it again award.

Danganronpa Another + Super Danganronpa Another 2




I've made like 4 different posts talking about how much I love these games but I've put most of my passion into my twitter side account to keep people spoiler-free but mostly because I feel so passionately about these games that it even warranted a new account.

The Danganronpa Another games are a duology created by South Korean developer, Linuj. Danganronpa Another first released in 2013, releasing chapters until 2015. Super Danganronpa Another 2 was announced with the release of DRA CH6, but Linuj had to do military service (lol) so the release of SDRA2 was delayed until 2017 and concluded in 2020.

These games are, as you may guess, danganronpa fan games. But I don't think you should discredit the games because they're fanworks. They stand strong as independent games and I very genuinely respect Linuj for making these games on his own. He had some assistance in places, but all of the writing, coding and art is his own which is an amazing feat.

There's a non-zero chance that, if you're familiar with danganronpa, you've heard of or seen a character from these games. Let's test that right now:



You get to see the casts too which is nice..! But anyway, my point is that when I was younger and far more enthusiastic about DR (2018~), I saw a lot of these characters, especially the protags (Yuki and Sora), twins (the bright pink things), Satsuki (clown) and Mikako (exorcist). If you don't recognize any of these characters though, that's fine. I would be more surprised though...

SDRA2 was still releasing when I first heard about it and I remember getting some crazy sense of deja vu playing through the first 2 chapters. I must have seen some spoilers online as a kid and just completely forgot.

I never got into DRA sooner but I'm kinda glad I didn't. I think I was able to appreciate the games far more than I would have as a preteen lol.

I really think that everyone should try DRA if they've ever had an interest in danganronpa. Even if you dislike danganronpa, I think it's worth a try because it takes the concepts from the games and executes them, in my opinion, in a far more interesting and compelling way. Upon finishing SDRA2, the only thing I could think about was these games. I drew every day and the only thing I drew was fanart. Hell, I've written 3 fanfictions for my favourite ship (which is HUGE spoilers SORRY) .... I've never felt so compelled by something that I would write several fanfics. For the last 6 or so months it was the only thing I could do... and you can see the proof on my blog lol.

(as spoiler-free as possible)

My favourite character from DRA: Rei Mekaru, the Ultimate Professor. She's my overall favourite character from the duology and she's also scarily similar to my oc, Nina, which really added some bonus points.

My favourite character from SDRA2: ........Well this is a tough decision but it's Iroha Nijiue, the Ultimate Painter. She's joined the ranks of Ranka Lee in Anime Girls That Represent Me.

I love a lot of the duology characters and it's a bit hard to say I love just one SDRA2 character because there's a lot of factors that change my answer based on what exactly you're asking. But overall, I really like Iroha. She makes me laugh a lot :P

(For no particular reason, this is what my discord layout looks like as of writing this post.)

Mekaru is definitely my favourite DRA character though, I won't budge on that LOL.

If I've caught your interest then you can read my first blog post about the games for some more basic info... But if you want to jump straight in, then here's a guide to downloading the game made by my friend Weez.

I've been taking a break from drawing fanart mostly because the holiday season is a very busy time for me plus I got hit by the OC disease like crazy... more on aquamarine later :P But I still keep getting so many drawing ideas I want to finish.. not counting the heaping pile I already have.

Jack Jeanne


Another big favourite of mine this year, but it quickly got overshadowed by DRA lol. Jack Jeanne is an otome visual novel with musical elements about a girl dressing up as a boy to attend an all-boys acting school. I have a more detailed post here!!

The premise alone is pretty interesting, but there are a lot more factors to why I love this game. For one, the art is totally gorgeous and done by Sui Ishida, who you may know better as the mangaka of Tokyo Ghoul. I've obviously known of Tokyo Ghoul and watched it as a kid (barely retained the plot though), but I wasn't very familiar with Ishida's art until playing this game. He is very talented and his work is super inspiring...

I didn't expect to like the music so much but I've been listening to the OST nonstop since playing the game. For every performance in the game, there's about 3 songs to accompany it and wow some of them are seriously so good. My favourite is 'intense confessions at the confessional'.

The huge big one is obviously the story. The characters move me so much, to the point of tears at one point (I rarely cry when reading stories like this.. not out of lack of emotion but it takes a lot). I love all of the main cast, some a lot more than others, but it's still an insanely strong cast. I've done almost every love interest's routes, only one left and not because I dislike him but because I got burnt out from playing so many routes. There's also a route for the protag, Kisa, where you don't romance anyone which I need to play too.

The only thing that stops me from recommending the game more is that it's a switch game that retails for $50 which puts a lot of people off. It goes on sale occasionally...

I've convinced a lot of friends to play the game last year which is the best feeling ever and the best part is that they enjoyed it too. My favourite routes were Kai, Souchan and Mitsuki's routes.


Kai's route made me cry man. I don't hate the other love interests but these 3 are my favourites, alongside the protag Kisa of course.

(more on favourite characters later)

I know otomes aren't for everyone but I really enjoyed playing Jack Jeanne... it's a surprisingly very emotional and I think about it literally everyday. I guess it's kind of my first proper otome too, I want to try more in the future.

of the Devil


This was an addition that really snuck up on me on the latter half of the year. I think at the time I was taking a bit of a break from drawing DRA/ thinking about it and I saw a tweet on my timeline about a VN with the synopsis of "death note but with lesbians" so obviously I have to try the game. Episode 0 is free on steam so it's not like I was losing anything.

BEST DECISION I'VE EVER MADE BTW.

'of the Devil' is a futuristic story set in 2086 about criminal defense attorney, Morgan. Crime is at an all-time low because there are cameras and trackers at every corner, making getting away with crime almost impossible. In each episode of the game, you play as Morgan and defend the wrongly-accused.

So far there's episode 0 (free) and episodes 1 + 2 (which you have to buy, but are pretty cheap and totally worth the price). OTD is made by a team of 4 and they release episodes pretty regularly too! Episode 1 came out in Feb 2025 and Episode 2 just came out last month, Dec 2025. I'm so excited to follow the development of the game... It's really impressive what they're doing and really inspiring too.

This game is insanely stylish! I absolutely adore the art style and the use of striking interactive 3D environments. You get an extremely strong feel for what life is like 60 years into this future, whether it be visually or in articles you read ingame. The characters are so charming in both design and writing. I got so many good laughs playing through the episodes. The music is also fantastic and episode 2 also features music made by Lena Raine, who you may recognize from Celeste, Minecraft, Deltarune and other video games.

Episode 0 serves as an introduction to the setting, so it spends a lot of time explaining common terminology and 2086 slang. Admittedly I found it a bit slow at the start but when I got around to the "main" part (meeting Morgan's client, going over the case), things really sped up for me and I fell in love with the game. Plus, by then I was familiar with most of the terms so things went faster when reading.

You don't get to play a trial in episode 0 since it's set purely at a police station, but in episodes 1 and 2, you get to go to court (YAAAY!!). This game is obviously inspired by things like ace attorney, but it's FAR from a cheap copy and definitely manages distinguishes itself. The mysteries are fun to figure out and what I really like is how the stories have a lot of layers to them. Upon finishing episode 2 I was really surprised by the "secret" (if you make certain decisions, you unlock a secret achievement/dialogue that reveals some pretty big information to you. They aren't required for chapter completion so they're secrets and are easy to miss).

I often find myself thinking about this game and how I wish I was playing it... But in the meantime I've been getting some friends to play which will be my fill for now. I totally recommend this game and supporting the devs! When I was having some crash troubles on ep2's release, they were really helpful and turns out I just needed to update my graphics driver lol.

Aquamarine


Is it cheating to put my OCs on here? No!!! Though, I'd put a properly illustrated lineup of them all if I had one.. For now I have their silhouettes :P One of my goals for this year is to redo refs/standing pictures of them. I'm kinda allergic to drawing fullbodies though... I'll do my bestest.

If you're reading this blog post you probably definitely know about Aquamarine... It's half of what I post on this blog nowadays. On the off-chance you don't know Aquamarine, it's my OC universe set in the titular technology facility, "Aquamarine". Set hundreds of years in the future, the Earth has flooded and forces humanity to reside atop the water, such as in repurposed oil rigs. Aquamarine utilizes a mechanic-diver pair system where mechanics use the materials gathered by divers.

I have an entire different blog dedicated to Aquamarine, but it's a little barebones currently. I have to finish drawing some assets but I've left it on the back burner for ages. You can still check it out though hehe... If you're on mobile, it looks nicer on desktop view! Frankly, I need to redo the profiles completely... I'll post an update when I get around to it T_T) Sorry...

I'm currently working on a short visual novel called "Doctor's Order" about Dr Lou Ambrose, the pink silhouette, where she starts working at Aquamarine and gets to know her patients. If you want to read more you can check my blog post all about it ;-P It'll serve to introduce people to my characters but also it's a fun project.

(Pictured: height accurate Aquamarine. These are (mockups?) for sprites I'll use in the visual novel. The gap between Alba and Dolly is really funny... Also Atlas is kind of naked because I got lazy on the night I was drawing them.)

I feel kind of like a fraudster because a lot of Aquamarine exists in writing that is either too disjointed to share or I'm too shy to share. I also tend to not finish drawings of my OCs because... I'm not sure actually. I know that I don't have to make my OCs presentable but I'm very passionate about Aquamarine and want to share them with more people... but not too many because that makes me nervous. Kind of contradictory but they're just really personal to me.

It's easy to share Roid because he exists in FFXIV and that means I don't have to build the world myself :P

For me, Aquamarine is something I can use to explore character dynamics and draw my characters. I feel kind of bad that I neglect the setting a bit because I enjoy writing character interactions but I'm Working On It... harhar... Even though I'm being a bit hard on myself here, I've made a lot of progress in the last year, especially since I spent half of it fixated on Danganronpa Another lmao. I'm back in an Aquamarine mood and I'm picking myself up from where I left off earlier last year.

I think I'm rambling now so here's my Aquamarine goals for 2026:
  1. Draw new refs for everyone
  2. Polish up the Aquamarine blog and finish those damn assets
  3. Hopefully finish Doctor's Order this year :P
  4. Draw some interiors and architecture... I have a vivid imagination for how Aquamarine's world looks
...3D model if I'm feeling ambitious. I tried last year but I still have plenty of time to try again.

2026 year of Aquamarine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Favourite characters of 2025


Here is the most horizontal picture ever. These are my fav characters of 2025! I won't bother naming everyone because this blog post is already long as hell but this is everyone who's particularly infested my brain so far.

I have no idea what's coming for me this year... I sure as hell didn't expect to spend most of my year obsessed with a danganronpa fangame so I guess anything can happen. Do you want to know what I've been spending my first few days of the year doing? Watching House MD, playing Higurashi and occasionally some Papa's Freezeria... and FFXIV normal/trial roulette. 2027 me come back and confirm if Higurashi altered my brain forever, plz and thanks.

Obviously I love Roid forever and ever.

Thanks for reading this blog post! And happy new year!

 THANK YOU 2025

I don't know how, but another year has passed which means the Rankaroid blog is now 2 years old. I can't believe it... this year seriously happened in an instant. I'm so thankful for my friends this year who made this year so much fun.

A lot and not a lot happened this year. I had a lot of free time and I had a health scare halfway through, but now I'm well and good. I'm not really sure how the future is going to look but I'm told that a lot of people my age aren't sure so I think it's okay to feel a bit lost. Maybe I'll set myself on a path soon... Don't know!

Let's review the things I said last year why don't we...


Ha....ha.............HAHA...................

No AA7. Try again next year. No KH4. Try again next year. Missing link.........GOT CANCELLED LOOOOOOOL.... :,V

And.... you know what...? I'll take AITSF3. No sleep is more like 1.5 since it takes place between 1 and 2 but it's still technically the third game in the series.

  1. I try my best to..
  2. Honestly this year I drew A LOT for me-standards. I have (cough) Danganronpa Another to thank for that. I've been a little sloppy on studies though... There's still time though
  3. Let's move on.
  4. I tried. I really did. I have like 5 different attempts at a Dolly model :,( Blender is so hard and takes me a long time. But I haven't quite given up yet. I just have a lot more things I want to do before picking 3D back up. Har har...
  5. Yeah did better on this. Though I'm pretty sure the only game I really played myself was Pokemon Z-A :P

My goals for 2026.... Not too sure. I guess it's going to be pretty similar.
  1. Draw and study more
  2. Read at least 2 books per month (keeping my expectations realistic..)
  3. More Aquamarine
  4. ...Make some moolah on the side
These goals are pretty vague but I don't really have anything better. Hehe... 

Tonight I had a chill night with my parents on new year's eve... New years is also my dad's bday so we double up on celebrations. I feel like the magic of the holiday season wasn't very strong this year but that's ok! I'm spending it with my loved ones so it's still special.

I was going to do the Rankaroid 2025 favourites posts sooner but omg I am SO bad at planning things so I'll do that tomorrow. I do know what I'm going to put on there though :-D

Happy new year! I hope 2026 treats us all well!

BOOK REVIEW

My goal is to start reading more so that's what I've been doing between drawing and FFXIV (lol). I wanted to keep track of what I've read and have comments on the books so why not utilize the good old blog?

All reviews will be as spoiler-free as possible ;-)

Sunrise on the Reaping (2025) by Suzanne Collins 

My confession: until a few weeks ago, I had never watched or read a lick of the Hunger Games. I knew the first like 10 minutes of the film where Katniss volunteers as tribute and also about the Peeta vs Gale ship wars, but other than that I didn't really know anything. When I was a kid the films were a huge deal so obviously I picked up a few things from that, but I still hadn't watched the films in full... which is why I watched all of them in the span of 2 days.

This was spurred on by seeing a lot of Hunger Games tweets as well as the Sunrise on the Reaping movie trailer coming out and I don't have much better to do so I watched all of the movies.

(Pictured: my letterboxd.)

But this isn't Rankaroid Film Reviews... let's get onto the actual book. Sunrise on the Reaping is a prequel book about the 50th Hunger Games (the trilogy takes part during the 74th and 75th Hunger Games) and follows Haymitch Abernathy, the district 12 mentor to Katniss and Peeta in the trilogy. I feel the need to apologize for not reading the entire series and jumping to read SotR first. I didn't think I would enjoy it so much so I went for the quicker and easier route. After reading SotR, I definitely want to go back and read the books to get the full story.

It's bad to say but I do enjoy the Hunger Games for the Hunger Games aspect. It's undeniably entertaining and makes me no better than the average Capitol resident... I guess that's why things like fanganronpas are so popular but that is completely besides the point. It was really interesting to see the inner workings of Haymitch's mind as well as how he came to be the jaded mentor that we know. I am very fond of the cast, especially the district 12 tributes. With double the amount of tributes, it means that there are 4 tributes per district this time- 2 girls and 2 boys.

The biggest thing that weighs on you while reading is that you know for a fact that only Haymitch survives but you just don't know the details yet. You meet so many characters with the knowledge that they're inevitably dying which makes things far more bittersweet. There's no hope because you know that all of these kids will die one way or another, often in very grotesque ways.

Aside from Haymitch, I found myself really attached to Lou Lou, a district 12 tribute. I can't delve into the details without spoiling the book, but I'm very fond of themes of identity and look-alikes. I also imagined her to have the likeness of Dolly (my OC) but as her young counterpart, which added to my attachment.

This is the part where I add a star rating but I am REALLY BAD at giving number ratings. So here I will say: I really enjoyed reading this book. I found that I couldn't put the book down, it's just so suspenseful. I know I'll enjoy reading the trilogy and the other prequel book, The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes.

Venus in Furs (1870) by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch

I feel like there's quite a gap between this and the previous entry but I wanted to read titles that interested me and what's more intriguing than a book by the namesake of "sadomasochism" or in modern times "S&M". BDSM is interesting to me and, no, that’s not a sexual confession or anything I just enjoy reading into the dynamics and how people interact with it. This blog is SFW but I’ll be touching upon sexual themes in the next 2 entries so if that’s not for you, thanks for reading up to here. We’re all adults here… probably? If not, stop reading..shoo…

Where do I even start with this book? I guess a brief synopsis. The narrator has a dream about a beautiful woman, the goddess Venus, wearing furs and sitting next to a fireplace. He’s so enamored by her and wakes up from his dream to find a painting exactly like it in his friend’s house. His friend, Severin von Kusiemski, is also in the picture, being used as a footstool by Venus who is holding a whip, but Severin is notably younger in the painting. This prompts Severin to tell the narrator about this painting by reading a manuscript describing the events leading up to the creation of the painting, “THE CONFESSIONS OF A SUPERSENSUAL MAN”. It details Severin meeting a young widow named Wanda von Dunajew, who he pursues and asks to become her slave.

For being a book about female dominance and masochism, it’s surprisingly not as explicit as you’d expect. There are sexual scenes definitely, but the most that’s described is kissing and plentiful foot kissing because Severin enjoys displaying his servitude.

Also Severin has a thing for ladies wearing fur, hence the title of the book. He compares Wanda to the likes of Venus and begs her to punish him specifically while wearing furs. This is a fairly significant part but I had no idea where to place this.

The confessions of a supersensual man are pretty absurd. This book isn’t particularly long, but I had to read it in intervals because I found the inner thoughts and dialogue from Severin to be so crazy that I had to close my reading app. This was obviously a very shocking book for its time in the 1800s, but it still proves to shock 200 years later. 

I really don’t think comedy was intended, but I kept laughing at sections of the book.

Moments like this made me laugh and I don’t think I should have been…😭 Wanda really tickles me.

Severin, as you may guess, is an intense masochist. Wanda does not mince her words and warns Severin that she does what she wants and may not stay faithful to him. Severin doesn’t care (or does he?) and begs to be her slave regardless. He’s actually inconsistent about this because at any sign of infidelity, he freaks the fuck out but at other times he’s content with being Wanda’s slave regardless of if she’s with another man or not. Severin is easily the most cucked man in the world. Then again, Sacher-Masoch was into cuckoldry so this is just part of the fantasy.

I want to dedicate a section to Wanda von Dunajew, the main female character in the book. She is the Venus in furs, the cruel mistress that Severin begged her to become. She’s reluctant to indulge Severin but gives it a try anyway. She warns him that she may not stay faithful to him and lives freely, describing herself as a pagan. Her worldviews are surprisingly modern? I found her character to be very refreshing despite the very obvious misogyny that the author holds, which is projected onto Severin. Wanda has become a new favourite character of mine very easily. 


She stays true to her word and I really like how strongly she adheres to it (keeping it vague because if you ever read the book the ending really homes this in LOL).

The dynamics and views of the characters are so memorable to me, I’ve been thinking about this book nonstop since finishing it. It’s really hard to forget the ending too, it’s such a massive rollercoaster. Definitely give this book a try if it interests you, it’s a very unique experience.

Venus in Fur (2010) by David Ives

It's a different one I swear.. it's "Venus in Fur" (singular). Despite the title of this play, it's not actually a direct theatrical adaptation but rather a play about a direct theatrical adaptation. A play within a play. The way it utilizes the story of "Venus in Furs" to tell another story is very clever. (I'm getting a sense of deja vu... this happens in Jack Jeanne...!)

This play is about a playwright, Thomas Novachek, who is struggling to cast an actress for Wanda von Dunajew (familiar name!) in his theatrical adaptation of "Venus in Furs". As auditions wrap up for the night, an actress, coincidentally named "Vanda", bursts into the room and begs Thomas to let her audition. He's not in the mood for another audition but Vanda shoots her shot anyway. The play covers Vanda's audition and she makes Thomas play Severin alongside her.

I definitely recommend watching the play because Vanda's character is so much fun on stage (I ended up reading the script in bed one night because I was bored and I find it easier to read than watch things). Vanda is really funny and her boisterous personality contrasts well with the uptight Thomas. Part of the fun is seeing Vanda push his buttons and constantly challenge the things he says.

There's actually a version played by Hugh Dancy and Nina Arianda, both faces you might recognize from Hannibal if you've watched the show. The audio is a bit hard to understand, but you could watch it with the script up too. There are some other versions available on youtube as well which I want to get around to watching!

I don't want to spoil the fun for this one because I very genuinely enjoyed experiencing the play for myself but one thing I want to comment on is how clever it is that it's a play within a play. The roles that Thomas and Vanda play start to blur at some point and you start wondering if it's actually them or Severin and Wanda saying these things. I got a lot of laughs out of it too which was fun.

There's nothing crazy explicit in this, but considering the source material and the fact that Vanda is in lingerie for 90% of the play, I would say this isn't the most child-friendly watch. There are points in this where they might as well just be naked on stage and it'd have the same effect.

I definitely recommend "Venus in Fur"! I'd say watch the play but the script was still plenty of fun to read through too.



And now I wrap up the first edition of Rankaroid Book Reviews! I'll do my best to update the blog with what I read. I read pretty slowly and I'm not really sure what my next book will be... find out next time ;-P Thanks for reading if you did!